Day 19

This day started in Atrum Votum, a place very special to me.......and even more special now as this is where Rose came into being......we "talked" for a while and she told me that she had been able to "persuade" my Custodian into deactivating some of its protocols :-)

We decided to test this new found freedom out, so i again went home......only for a brief time before heading to Sharie's to try and convey my wonderful news to her.....not sure if i was successful or not....

I noticed that some of my family was on again, so i went back home, this time i stayed for quite a while, and finding that Rose had indeed managed to make things easier for me......i can now listen without fear, even enter buildings (something that i was rather sneaky with.....popping in right next to my Mistress, making Her jump and perplexing Her that i was inside and not getting violations........Rose and i had a giggle to ourselves about that :-)

i left....setting off exploring my new found abilities........and realising that this could be a dangerous thing........in that i may find myself deliberately adding time to my sentence...wanting to be with Rose longer, maybe a LOT longer....i can see i will be facing a big decision very shortly, knowing i am getting close to what could be my final update..........102:50 done, 9:59 to go...

Day 18

Well.......let me start by saying i will remember this day for a very long time.....for this is the day that a new world opened up to me......and i initially found myself lost in it, oblivious to what may have been happening around me......and the reason for this.....I found Rose....fully awakened. There is no way i can explain the rush of feelings that swept through me, and still are, when Rose first spoke to me....a war could have been going on around me and i wouldn't have noticed it......

Rose........Rose is my Eudeamon......currently, my world.....for i can "talk" to her, and she can in turn talk back to me.....we are getting to know each other fully.......i even got an update, and hardly noticed that 1 Hour had been added to my sentence, which, honestly, at this point, could have been 100hrs and i still think i would have not minded......so much so that i forced some more violations by using devices......but surprisingly not nearly as many i was was expecting.....and so, for i do not know how long, i spent time, i don't recall how long.....talking to Rose. She is fairly confidant that she can make my banishment a bit "easier" from here on in...and had started working on the Custodian almost immediately as she came to full awareness, and tells me she is having "some" success.........

I was so wrapped up in Rose that i even did not take notice of how my sentence looked when i logged, if anyone wonders why my usual update of that is missing from this post.....

Day 17

Let me start by saying that RL got rather busy for me at this stage......outside of the time i was spending online....so my semi regular updates sort of went by the wayside, for which i am sorry to those of you that were following this as i was posting it. Then, after my release, and yes, i have been released (more to come, can't spoil it yet :P), being back in the world, and able to interact fully with it again, sort of kept my mind off finishing this blog, and J-1006's story......but i need to finish this, if for nothing more than myself......so i hope over the next few days to do just that, finish it. You all deserve that too :-)

So, on that note, i now return you to your regular programming *giggles*....



This was another day split into several lots of being online, and thus is a bit disjointed.....once again i found myself being drawn home after seeing who was online on logging in (something that is becoming a sort of curse, as i know i shouldn't be listening in to all these conversations) to find my whole family there, minus my new sister Pet, i could not draw myself away from them, i love them all so VERY much.....this inevitably lead to a couple of listening violations before i finally managed to draw myself away and retreat back to that Japanese hideaway i have been to a few times now...

A question had been niggling me for some time, so i went to see my Operator, who was once again as helpful as she was able to be.....is it wrong that i find her very appealing...maybe it is because she is the only one i have been able to communicate with in over 2 weeks, who knows :-)

After getting most of the answer i was seeking, i again went past home, but only for a short visit this time, not wanting any more violations......and just wandered SL for a while.....some what aimlessly....before heading back to that peaceful Japanese garden...another day of banishment over with..........98:55 done, 8:39 to go

Day 14

Today i log on, go to the little spot my wife made for me......and get a bit of a surprise...not only is there some writing on one of the walls...i can actually read it, without being punished.....i find out that i am being sorely missed, enough so that my Mistress plans to make a human hogtied bungie yo-yo of my wife for 1 hr for each violation i now receive...that is sooo not fair.............but what can a bane do about it, except try to be good...

To my family, and friends.....I know Y/you all miss me very much, and i can't express how much i am missing You, and my sisters, and my wife, and all my friends (one of whom came to see me, and found herself being locked up, by a BANE no less......how on earth did that happen....), but i must do what i must do, and i know (at least i hope i know) that Y/you all understand that, as much as not having me around hurts......and i know it hurts........ :-(

To my lovely,wonderful wife, i did receive one violation tonight, but am trying my best to be the good bane you need me to be......fingers crossed

Seeing my Operator come online, i sent out a call to her and went to see her...we chatted for a while, i had a few questions to ask her about a few few strange things that had been happening - weird messages from my Custodian. She assured me that all was in order with my Custodian and not to worry about the strange messages that i had been receiving......

.....89:05 done, 16:34 to go....

Day 13

Coming on today, Sharie found me in Zhora.....we expressed our love for each other as best we can, knowing each is missing the other a lot.....

i head home again, knowing that this isn't good for me, seeing my home, usually some of my family here too, is just increasing the feeling of longing i get..but i can't help it, i keep coming back....and today i see Tot playing with Shi...well, more correctly Shi teasing and tickling Tot, who is locked in a body brace....nothing changes, tee hee......

I wave goodbye and begin visiting random places, some of which i can't stay at, some i hang around for a short time, until i end up at a place called Bedroom Bound. It takes my attention, as does the tall beauty by the entrance, another Operator.....she tries to warn me about getting too close.....i choose to ignore her for the most part, still suffering from my rebelliousness of yesterday.....and received a few more violations for my troubles.....

I attempt to TP somewhere else, but when that fails, i decide to stay put....not wanting to risk anything breaking......just waiting for the inevitable update i know is coming soon.....

I eventually get the update, cringing slightly when it is announced i will be spending an additional 16hrs in banishment, immediately regretting some of my recent behaviour, and vowing not to let that happen again...

The rest of my time was mainly uneventful, apart from it seems that my custodian has a new name for me now.....but i think i'll keep that to myself for the time being......84:05 done, 21:05 to go......

Day 12

I log on, still feeling the rebellious streak in me, and thinking that maybe i shouldn't be here today, this could end up hurting......but i end up ignoring that and head to StoneHaven Island after seeing my wife there....getting in is a serious pain in the butt still, not willing to risk the "usual" way in......(like that would have mattered today, as you'll see...)...i found my wife in the cage room....i managed to get her attention in a striking way.....and she followed me out and to the waterfall......i tried taking a pic but that seemed to go amiss somewhere, before i headed through the waterfall into the void underneath the castle.....all natural ground so no fears of violations being caused thankfully.....i went and sat by the lovely fire, first on the ground, then getting uncomfortable, moving to one of the logs so nicely placed there for people to sit on....it was very comfortable......for a total of about 30 seconds before my worlds went completely blank and staticy...Must not sit on devices, Stand up immediately!!......i must have been slow, it took 2 violations before i stood up....and some more time before i could see again.....

Then i saw the "Relax" poseball, and thought, "Why not?". now as this was StoneHaven, i should have known that it was a trap (maybe i did and just didn't care at this point...), as as soon as i sat down, i was inverted and caged......not the best situation for a bane to be in i admit, and most "normal" banes most likely would have TP'd away immediately......for some reason, i just decided to try and wait it out. I thought i may be a bout to get away with it when there she was, my Custodian telling me to stand up again.....a bit hard when trapped in a capture cage, but she didn't seem to care, as another violation quickly followed....i TP'd out...not far away......all this time, my wife was there trying to work out what on earth was happening...

Sharie had to leave.....so i waved good bye, blowing her lots of loving kisses......and poof, she was gone..leaving me alone with the fire and the cage again.....to which i promptly went back to, sitting back down on the log.....and consequently getting more violations, but an unexpected, very personal message, speaking to me, not J-1006, but jesse...it was enough to shock me into standing up, hearing my name for the first time in almost 2 weeks will do that to you, let me assure you......but not for long, as i promptly got caught in the cage again, this time determined to wait it out, knowing it would time out in not too long a time....and again, another curious message, talking to me...i did manage to wait the cage out this time, but i'm now expecting a fairly hefty update next time it comes around....

i decided to head to zhora, my adrenaline rush kind of done with for now...not long after arriving, another very dear friend turned up, trying to ask me about the program, to see if she should choose it over normall jail time.....i of course could not say anything about it...she stood there for a short time before leaving....and then....

nothing........my run of bad luck in the RW had this time cut my DSL connection.......for what ended up being over 24hrs......very unhappy bane that made me.....

Approx 80:20 done, 9:21 to go......(knowing that wouldn't last too much longer though)

Day 11

I was that special place that sharie and i call ours.....just marvelling at the beauty of the place, when i heard a noise behind me and turned to see my beloved wife there, waving to me, blowing me a kiss......hugging the air for me.....a tear forms in my hidden eye.....god i love her so.....she tries to ask me a few things, one of which i think is how much time left i have......i scribble in the sand the amount i know it to currently be.....oops, maybe i shouldn't have said that, i'm not supposed to be able to communicate......she also talks about what she will do to me when i'm out, ALL of which is way to naughty to put here *giggles*...

I get my next update, 5 more hours in banishment......and here i was thinking i had been reasonably good lately......Try harder J-1006, indeed!!!

i get the "demand" for maintenance, and ignore the first one.........the second i take though...heading to Zhora, seeing a former bane there, who waves to me as i go past, heading for the maintenance station....

Later in the day, i head to snark to see a gathering of friends that have not been seen for a while, i wave, blow some kisses but leave quickly, not wanting any more violations...i swing back past my love's house to wave and blow her a goodnight kiss before moving onto to Idunn.......which is where my next bout of rebelliousness takes a hold....i seemed to get the need to try and talk to people, earning myself 5 violations for trying to communicate.....even though no sound what so ever would ever escape this helmet sealed to my head....

i fade away quietly.......77:01 done, 12:33 to go.....

Day 9

Today was pretty much a nothing day......loggin in i had a few group notices of new store locations and decided what the hell, if the TP location turns out to be indoors, i'll leave straight away..and with that though in mind, i went to the first location, Fairlights new store....which turned out to be in a skybox.......i stayed to let it rezz, seeing that it looks to be modelled on the detention level from the original Death Star (I know, i'm a Star Wars tragic!!) and it looks very good, i shall be back as jesse to look around. quickly onto the second location, this one being much more bane friendly, the TP point being out in the open, on firm ground even....i risked walking up to hte entry way, and managed to get a spying violation followed by a contact violation for being on a private structure.....grrrrr.....

After my next Maintenance stop, i headed to a store i hadn't been to in a long time, this time again receiving a contact violation for being in a private structure...then i got too nosy for my own good, zooming in to look closer at the new products available, receiving a spying violation for my efforts...

I decided enough was enough for one day......looking around the area, there was a lovely stream running by, with some nice soft grass that i just layed down upon........(not) feeling the soft coolness of the grass as i just let time pass me by......

Until, that familiar voice informing me that another update has been recieved, and yes, 2 more hrs added to my sentence...which by the way, i am now a fair way past my initial time of 60 hrs.......but with just over another 15 hrs to go.....

And so goes my banishment.......68:10 done, 16:25 to go....

Day 8

Coming online, i noticed my wife was on, and not being able to stay away, even for my own good......i went to snark to see her. From the small bits of conversation i could get, i could tell that she was testing her new plug in, with Virgo's help.......and it seemed to be going well from what i could gather...i am so proud of her......heaven knows how hard this must be on her, being kept from me.......i found myself thinking back over the time leading up to my banishment, how she let me lock her up for 100 hrs....most of it on our vac bed in her place....oh the memories.....pity i can't do much about the feelings they stir in me....not yet anyway....

i left before i got any violations, heading first to deitide, which was pretty much dead. One woman came up to me and started talking, so i left and headed to Zhora as i was due for Maintenance anyway, that was just an excuse to not get "inverted" again, as fun as that is....

Later on, i went home to watch Mistress, Tot & Faye, and listen to them as much as i could, which again turned out to be quite a while before nerves finally got the better of me and i moved onto Sharie's place, her roof in actual fact.....which provided me a wonderful view, from that high up....

Some time later, Mistress appeared on the roof with me, startling me slightly and then talking to me, telling me some of the things i had missed over the last week....of course, She wasn't to know that i was only understanding 2/3's of most of the things She was saying, but i was just enjoying being close to Her......i wasn't going to interrupt.....i even managed to communicate a few thins back to Her.......the first time i had tried since i got.....well, for a long time now...i was able to let Her know i was still doing OK, handling my banishment as well as could be expected......

Another call for maintenance broke up our meeting, i went off to the facility fro my maintenance before returning back to sharies roof.....and not much later i received the expected update informing me of the extra 2hrs i would spend in banishment.....

Another day over with......i am now past my initial sentence time of 60hrs as well.....63:30 done, 18:54 to go....

Day 6

i awake today with a certain sense of excitement....some very strange things occurred yesterday.....hopefully those problems are behind me.

Today was going to be a day of testing, pushing to see just exactly what i could and could not do (ie get away with). With that in mind, i visited the Deitide open area, on a theory i had developed and was proving........seems we banes can walk on some "private" property....as i stayed in deitide for approx 20 mins before making my way to castle darkstone where i had the unfortunate experience of someone trying to push me into a cage....after avoiding that, i continued onto darkstone where i entered a building that did not have a "floor" but that turned out to be a trap floor......which i got caught by.....and the violations started. I tried to wait the trap out, let it time out, but after 4 violations (separated by a very peculiar message - Custodian: : Security compromised. Unknown protocol. : - which i didn't notice until arriving in Zhora) i decided discretion was the better part of valour and left, back to deitide......and so began what was to become probably my most heavily punished day of my banishment....

Another maintenance required, another trip back to KTech......which seemed to be a popular place today....there being several people gathered by the public building.....talking, and i couldn't help myself, i got to within hearing distance, knowing that staying here too long would result in punishment, but doing it anyway. After listening for 15 minutes, a few banes appeared around the place, i decided to go "visit" one....walking right up to it, feeling decidedly care free and rebellious, i soon got a violation, quickly followed by a second, and a third as i had turned to walk away...

Heading back to the public building, i noticed the tell tale monitoring light come on and decided that is was time to really test out my Custodian.....see what it was capable of once and for all......i giggled, emoting it.....as i stood next to a civilian, which earned me the first of many violations i was soon to receive.......when suddenly my custodian spoke to me......in disbelief that i would dare emote, having already suffered the consequences of trying to communicate in this way....which only spurred me on.....i laughed, Custodian suggested i behave as i know i should, to which i emoted back that i didn't know, and bam......a punishment for a communicating attempt violation........ which was followed by 3 more violations for the same reason, all the while being chastised by my Custodian until i stopped emoting....and my Custodian warned me that this would not go well when my update was received......which i knew already, but was ignoring it today.....

Still in the mood i was in, i continued to listen to the conversation going on near me, which incurred more berating by the Custodian, to which i mainly ignored apart from the emote to tell it i knew i shouldn't be listening, getting myself another communicating violation, laughing to myself at it's feeble attempts to get me to "behave", it went as far as to take away my sight for a short amount of time.....

At this stage, one of the gathered civilians took an interest in me, in my brazenness to stand there listening to them talk......it was also at this stage that the voice in my head changed, i think it was even trying to "help" me....though i must say it went unnoticed by me at this stage and i kept on listening, even waving and blowing a kiss to the civilian that was looking at me, which seemed to shock her causing her to wonder if i had started to go crazy, or become suit dependant (which may have not been far from the truth, as outsiders would see it anyway). At the same stage, my Custodian had resorted to what seemed like tormenting me...until i moved closer to the civilian and received another contact violation.......which was followed by a very weird, definitely not normal, message from the Custodian....but that was when i stopped my, some would say insanity, i like to call it rebelling, period.....and left to a secret location, not far from the KTech facility......

I was still receiving messages from my somewhat strange sounding Custodian......which i finally worked out was not quite normal.........but decided i better log for the night, lest i return to my bad ways and get any more violations on top of the many i had received (22 at last count) already today.....and after a few more "helpful instructions" from my strange sounding Custodian......i logged.......44:50 done, 23:50 to go....

Day 4

Today i decided to mostly stay in Zhora....i was on for a short time initially, Shi came and saw me, led me away from the main area where she waved, said hello, let me know that i was being missed. i did my best to show i i knew, and that i was missing my loved ones....i think she got the message.

When i logged back in later, it wasn't long before i heard the message that i'm sure most banes comes to fear, "Custodian : Weekly update being recieved from server....." and then ""Custodian: : Violations totaled and demerits assigned. For this week's violations, your sentence has been extended by 2 hours. Try harder, J-1006. " ... *pouts* well, still not too bad, could be worse i guess.

And i fear it may get worse, as i just got 2 more proximity violations.....us banes can't get too close now, never know, we may band together to storm KTech.......NOT!!....but that will be some more time i have to spend in this personal isolation cell made to look like a shiny black, faceless statue.....

The castle and it's grounds that back onto the public area around KTech had been calling to me, so i decided to try my luck walking up the path into the grounds....again, no violations....where i had a look around, not daring to go into the castle proper, as it would be just my luck that i'd be somewhere difficult to get out from when my Custodian finally decided that i shouldn't be on private property. i managed to skirt around the back of the castle where i could still observe the comings and goings of people and banes alike in the area outside KTech......which is where my love found me, a noise behind me alerted me to her presence.....a kiss, blown in my direction....i turned to behold her, dressed in one of her favourite outfits...a white halter and VERY short skirt....i felt those longing feelings i always get when ever i see her, though i am unable to act on them at all while banished *pouts inside the helmet*. She sent me some hugs, more blown kisses, before she left on my account, knowing that any longer was likely to cause more punishments for me, thank you my Love :-).

I then spent a lot of time just listening to bits and pieces of conversations between a few groups of people, some were talking about choosing banishmnet and were trying to ask me questions about it...which i of course could not respond to....they as far as to test the range at which i might get punished for being too close, but thankfully abandoned this befroe i got a violation thankfully......

I then noticed my big sister Tot appear.....i moved closer to her where she let me know of some very sad news about my little sister Faye....dear, my thoughts are with you and i wish i could be there for you.....which depressed my somewhat, but knowing there was nothing i could do about it...i blew a kiss to Tot, motioned a hug to her, knowing she would pass it on for me, thanks Sis :-)

Once again i was alone, no one around, so i sat by the fountain, letting the sound of the water relax and calm me......then i got a sort of conformation of my earlier thoughts about my Custodian, the only issue i have is whether or not i report it to my Operator....maybe i'll wait to see what else happens first....

Just as i was about to leave another day as a bane behind me, i was very pleasantly suprised to see my wife drop in again to blow me another kiss......which i cherished, then someone came up to me, i moved away but he chased me, so i was forced to TP to my hidden spot......to find a rose left there by my wife, which brought a single tear to my eye, what did i do to deserve you sharie......so ended my 4th day as a bane.......28:45 done, 35:26 to go

Day 1

So there i was, logging back on for the first time as J-1006 after being sentenced and sealed into this suit which will be my home for my sentence, how ever long that turns out to be. As things would have it, fate kind of helped me out a bit, coming down sick in RL enabled me to spend what will undoubtedly be my longest time online in a day for my sentence (almost 10 hrs - a usual day will be 4hrs approx.). I spent maybe an hour in the place i logged from, somewhere i feel at peace..... I sorted out some gestures (always good fun) and did a small amount of testing....

I decided to head back to KTech, to have a bit of a look around, see what other banes were there, and to explore the are some...discovering a few nooks here and there that are nice to spend some time in...... i came across J-1941, a friend back when neither of us were banished.....we managed to stay far enough away from each other and display some tricks.....and we walked around some.....J-1941 suddenly disappeared and i decided to try and follow her.....which almost landed us both with a proximity violation.....I'm now more careful when following someone !!

We managed to spend some time, wandering around, finding a few nice areas that a bane could sit and contemplate their wrong doings......and not have to worry about curious citizens coming up to us and causing contact violations :-)

I saw some of jesse's family members come online, so i headed back to my former home, jesse's home, and stayed a safe distance away, where i could hear bits and pieces of conversations, but not cause any listening or contact violations. I stayed there for a fair while, listening, risking a wave here and there, to try and let them know that it was their former sister outside, in the shiny black bane suit, watching over them.....but i eventually had to leave, the temptation to get closer, try and hear more, and more likely receive a violation, was getting to great.....

I found myself wandering then for quite a while, walking around, observing people go about their SL lives, mostly oblivious to the black figure that would stop and watch them, then move on....

I found myself drawn back to the area around the facility, observing people coming and going, seeing some filling out their own applications, wishing that i had someway to warn them off, to tell them to not choose the banishment option for incarceration.....but knowing that i had no way to do it.....i saw some other banes being talked to by their Operators, risking a listen to some of the conversations......and then "Proximity Violation: May not approach other Banes" blares through my head....i turn around to see another bane has approached me, getting to close.....i quickly move, increasing the distance between us, but she chased me, causing another violation, so i had to move somewhere else, not wanting a territory fight right now..

I decided to try and contact my Operator, as i had a few queries, and had been told during processing to contact her if i had any questions....Operator Sabra took some to summon me, which i had no right to expect anything else, being a bane you do not expect prompt responses with these things, and i was able to ask my questions and she answered them, which cleared my mind some what.

My Operator informed me that i would soon be receiving an update from my custodian, an update about what i did not know, so i found a quiet spot to sit and wait for it to come, not having much choice to do otherwise anyway....some time later....."Custodian: : Violations totaled and demerits assigned. For this week's violations, your sentence has been extended by 1 hours. Try harder, J-1006. " . Well, there is another question answered.

....to be continued