Day 16

Spending some time at some of the more peaceful, favourite places in SL. My Love finds me in what has become to us, our very special place, it is where i proposed to her, and she accepted.....i seem to be able to hear more these days without getting punished as much...and take advantage of that to listen to what Sharie has been up to the last few days......and can't wait to be able to use some of those things when I'm released....i am able to let her know that i have been good so far, no violations up to this point, which she is very happy about :)

We go our separate ways, i head back home briefly....see my sisters there but decide to move on quickly....knowing that i may be targeted, i head to a little known quaint Japanese styled location, very peaceful, on the coast of an island.......i use the peacefulness to try and get to know my Custodian better.....try talking to it....and not getting much of a response...i wait to hear from it and not just the monotone directions it usually give me when i have done something wrong.........something like.....Try harder J-1006, in response to having 2 hrs added to my sentence........92:48 done, 14:49 to go.....

Day 13

Coming on today, Sharie found me in Zhora.....we expressed our love for each other as best we can, knowing each is missing the other a lot.....

i head home again, knowing that this isn't good for me, seeing my home, usually some of my family here too, is just increasing the feeling of longing i get..but i can't help it, i keep coming back....and today i see Tot playing with Shi...well, more correctly Shi teasing and tickling Tot, who is locked in a body brace....nothing changes, tee hee......

I wave goodbye and begin visiting random places, some of which i can't stay at, some i hang around for a short time, until i end up at a place called Bedroom Bound. It takes my attention, as does the tall beauty by the entrance, another Operator.....she tries to warn me about getting too close.....i choose to ignore her for the most part, still suffering from my rebelliousness of yesterday.....and received a few more violations for my troubles.....

I attempt to TP somewhere else, but when that fails, i decide to stay put....not wanting to risk anything breaking......just waiting for the inevitable update i know is coming soon.....

I eventually get the update, cringing slightly when it is announced i will be spending an additional 16hrs in banishment, immediately regretting some of my recent behaviour, and vowing not to let that happen again...

The rest of my time was mainly uneventful, apart from it seems that my custodian has a new name for me now.....but i think i'll keep that to myself for the time being......84:05 done, 21:05 to go......

Day 12

I log on, still feeling the rebellious streak in me, and thinking that maybe i shouldn't be here today, this could end up hurting......but i end up ignoring that and head to StoneHaven Island after seeing my wife there....getting in is a serious pain in the butt still, not willing to risk the "usual" way in......(like that would have mattered today, as you'll see...)...i found my wife in the cage room....i managed to get her attention in a striking way.....and she followed me out and to the waterfall......i tried taking a pic but that seemed to go amiss somewhere, before i headed through the waterfall into the void underneath the castle.....all natural ground so no fears of violations being caused thankfully.....i went and sat by the lovely fire, first on the ground, then getting uncomfortable, moving to one of the logs so nicely placed there for people to sit on....it was very comfortable......for a total of about 30 seconds before my worlds went completely blank and staticy...Must not sit on devices, Stand up immediately!!......i must have been slow, it took 2 violations before i stood up....and some more time before i could see again.....

Then i saw the "Relax" poseball, and thought, "Why not?". now as this was StoneHaven, i should have known that it was a trap (maybe i did and just didn't care at this point...), as as soon as i sat down, i was inverted and caged......not the best situation for a bane to be in i admit, and most "normal" banes most likely would have TP'd away immediately......for some reason, i just decided to try and wait it out. I thought i may be a bout to get away with it when there she was, my Custodian telling me to stand up again.....a bit hard when trapped in a capture cage, but she didn't seem to care, as another violation quickly followed....i TP'd out...not far away......all this time, my wife was there trying to work out what on earth was happening...

Sharie had to leave.....so i waved good bye, blowing her lots of loving kisses......and poof, she was gone..leaving me alone with the fire and the cage again.....to which i promptly went back to, sitting back down on the log.....and consequently getting more violations, but an unexpected, very personal message, speaking to me, not J-1006, but jesse...it was enough to shock me into standing up, hearing my name for the first time in almost 2 weeks will do that to you, let me assure you......but not for long, as i promptly got caught in the cage again, this time determined to wait it out, knowing it would time out in not too long a time....and again, another curious message, talking to me...i did manage to wait the cage out this time, but i'm now expecting a fairly hefty update next time it comes around....

i decided to head to zhora, my adrenaline rush kind of done with for now...not long after arriving, another very dear friend turned up, trying to ask me about the program, to see if she should choose it over normall jail time.....i of course could not say anything about it...she stood there for a short time before leaving....and then....

nothing........my run of bad luck in the RW had this time cut my DSL connection.......for what ended up being over 24hrs......very unhappy bane that made me.....

Approx 80:20 done, 9:21 to go......(knowing that wouldn't last too much longer though)

Day 10

OK......i am now finding myself more at peace......I've been spending a lot of my time sitting around, admiring things around me, staying relaxed......though, today it seemed that rebellious part of me had to stick it's neck out again, some emotes slipped out, and then for some unknown reason i went into the same shop that i received violations for entering yesterday...crazy, i know.

Most of today, like yesterday, was spent in Idunn though today a good friend came by, wearing what i can only describe as a magnificent outfit, all transparent latex, simply wonderful.......she had someone with her i did not know, and they seemed to be having fun, the unknown girl seemingly locking my friend up.....hope they were having fun.

I had by this stage been for my second maintenance stop today, both in Zhora where i usually hang around for a little while to see if anyone comes by. Today, on my first visit, exiting the Maintenance facility i notice my Love, there waiting for me, blowing me a kiss or two, motioning to hug me.... a tear wells in my eye, unbeknownst to her, hidden away in this suit....she tells me she loves me very much, and is starting to really miss me, wanting me back home...and i am missing her too....but for now, i am still at the mercy of my custodian, unable to communicate really in any way....or risk being punished for it. We were there just looking at each other, when a griefer decided to attack my love...there i was, helpless to do anything about it, to help her, but knowing that my sweet looking wife can handle her own, i had no choice but to leave......not knowing what could/would happen with the custodian. My second visit went fairly well regularly, the place was deserted.....except for a lone black figure of in the distance, i started to move towards her.......but she left before i could get too close, most likely afraid of getting any unwanted proximity violations...which, today, i was too non-plussed about getting.....

After seeing my friend in Idunn, i decided to head back to a place that is very special to me......to sit and watch the sunset fall on another day banished....only to get a double punishment for using a poseball.........damn you Custodian, managing to ruin something as beautiful as these special sunsets......

And for those wondering about those strange messages my Custodian had been giving me.....it's been 2 days now, since the last one......I'm wondering if it has managed to repair itself.....as i have also not seen my Operator for several days to ask her about it, though I'm not overly sure i want to share this with her....

Another day over with.........73:45 done, 10:45 to go...

Day 7

Almost immediately coming on today, i heard the message that all banes come to fear i imagine, "Receiving weekly update from server".....and i knew this was going to be a bad one, having been ti***********************************************

transmission intercepted and censored by Kelley Technologies Inc.

******************************************and there it was, 11 hrs added. "Try harder J-1006!". Well, that nastiness over with.....

Most of today i was dealing with some very strange goings on inside my head.....well, all to do with the Custodian of course....so i found a nice quiet place to just go and let what ever was going on happen. It seems as if there is some kind of battle going on inside my head, between the Custodian and, well, something else.....i have no idea what.....and to tell you the truth, I'm not sure who i want to win, sure the Custodian is quick (mostly) to deliver punishments when i step outside the bounds of banishment, but it is only doing what it has been programmed to do. This new, entity, is something i have no idea about, and am not sure if it would be better or worse to have in my head than the Custodian. As for the Custodian, I went through a stage of hating it, but now see it as an extension of those people in Kelley Technologies evil minds to create such a thing in the first place, and i no longer hate my Custodian, i just live with it, trying to do the right thing so that i can finish my sentence and get back to all the people that love me and are missing me....

Things quietened down somewhat after a time, so i decided to use some of my newly discovered freedom of walking on something that wasn't just bare ground, and visited a few of my former self's old haunts, namely Deitide (again), Stone Haven Island and Snark (better known as Psi's Realm). I stayed away from people for the most part, some came near me, said a few things, but mostly i was ignored. There seem to be quite a few of us around society these days, and people are becoming accustomed to ignoring us, as they should do for their own well being....

I was feeling rather daring at this point, and decided to go to my wife's house (a sky box). I arrived, having carefully chosen my point to be just above her roof....and there i was, standing on her roof....she must have noticed me arriving as not 30 seconds later, there she was, beautiful as ever, a sight for sore, covered eyes....i tried sitting on the roof, but soon earned myself a violation for "Using Devices"..bah.....so standing room only i guess, hi hi. We stood there, time slipping away, me imagining what might be running through her mind, wanting to know how her projects are going, her plug in, her script, her cage.....but knowing i can only wait to be released to find these and so many other things out that were happening all around me while i am banished....

I knew this had been a reasonably long day when i heard the weekly update message again, this time it was only 1 more hour added......much easier to hear than the 11 in the previous update, my rebellious side has been put back in her box for now......hopefully not to resurface again until my sentence is over with....and with that, it was time for my day to end.........54:46 hrs done, 25:43 hrs to go....

Day 6

i awake today with a certain sense of excitement....some very strange things occurred yesterday.....hopefully those problems are behind me.

Today was going to be a day of testing, pushing to see just exactly what i could and could not do (ie get away with). With that in mind, i visited the Deitide open area, on a theory i had developed and was proving........seems we banes can walk on some "private" property....as i stayed in deitide for approx 20 mins before making my way to castle darkstone where i had the unfortunate experience of someone trying to push me into a cage....after avoiding that, i continued onto darkstone where i entered a building that did not have a "floor" but that turned out to be a trap floor......which i got caught by.....and the violations started. I tried to wait the trap out, let it time out, but after 4 violations (separated by a very peculiar message - Custodian: : Security compromised. Unknown protocol. : - which i didn't notice until arriving in Zhora) i decided discretion was the better part of valour and left, back to deitide......and so began what was to become probably my most heavily punished day of my banishment....

Another maintenance required, another trip back to KTech......which seemed to be a popular place today....there being several people gathered by the public building.....talking, and i couldn't help myself, i got to within hearing distance, knowing that staying here too long would result in punishment, but doing it anyway. After listening for 15 minutes, a few banes appeared around the place, i decided to go "visit" one....walking right up to it, feeling decidedly care free and rebellious, i soon got a violation, quickly followed by a second, and a third as i had turned to walk away...

Heading back to the public building, i noticed the tell tale monitoring light come on and decided that is was time to really test out my Custodian.....see what it was capable of once and for all......i giggled, emoting it.....as i stood next to a civilian, which earned me the first of many violations i was soon to receive.......when suddenly my custodian spoke to me......in disbelief that i would dare emote, having already suffered the consequences of trying to communicate in this way....which only spurred me on.....i laughed, Custodian suggested i behave as i know i should, to which i emoted back that i didn't know, and bam......a punishment for a communicating attempt violation........ which was followed by 3 more violations for the same reason, all the while being chastised by my Custodian until i stopped emoting....and my Custodian warned me that this would not go well when my update was received......which i knew already, but was ignoring it today.....

Still in the mood i was in, i continued to listen to the conversation going on near me, which incurred more berating by the Custodian, to which i mainly ignored apart from the emote to tell it i knew i shouldn't be listening, getting myself another communicating violation, laughing to myself at it's feeble attempts to get me to "behave", it went as far as to take away my sight for a short amount of time.....

At this stage, one of the gathered civilians took an interest in me, in my brazenness to stand there listening to them talk......it was also at this stage that the voice in my head changed, i think it was even trying to "help" me....though i must say it went unnoticed by me at this stage and i kept on listening, even waving and blowing a kiss to the civilian that was looking at me, which seemed to shock her causing her to wonder if i had started to go crazy, or become suit dependant (which may have not been far from the truth, as outsiders would see it anyway). At the same stage, my Custodian had resorted to what seemed like tormenting me...until i moved closer to the civilian and received another contact violation.......which was followed by a very weird, definitely not normal, message from the Custodian....but that was when i stopped my, some would say insanity, i like to call it rebelling, period.....and left to a secret location, not far from the KTech facility......

I was still receiving messages from my somewhat strange sounding Custodian......which i finally worked out was not quite normal.........but decided i better log for the night, lest i return to my bad ways and get any more violations on top of the many i had received (22 at last count) already today.....and after a few more "helpful instructions" from my strange sounding Custodian......i logged.......44:50 done, 23:50 to go....